It’s 4am and I’ve been doing a hell of a lot of thinking lately. I have been so negative this past year or so. To the point that I really hated humans so much that I didn’t want to be on this planet. Every time I felt the good in my heart, I HAD to say something cold so I could dismiss it. I let the bad things in life control me. Sometimes I literally felt possessed. I wasn’t myself, it felt like I had a big rainy cloud over me and anyone who came near me got rained on. But, after spending time around awesome people, I realized people aren’t so bad at all. They’re actually pretty cool. We live in a world full of people, society, rules, laws, and it’s something I just need to accept. I didn’t want to accept these things, I did not want to conform anymore. I wanted to be free. But alas, this is the only life I get. I can sit here and pout about how much it disgusts me that I live on earth, or I can deal with it and surround myself with good people and feel the love it has to offer. I am going to do my best to stop being such a cold hearted stubborn asshole and ignore the devil on my shoulder; I’m really tired of ignoring the good in me. I’m sorry to anyone I’ve given the cold shoulder to. I just wasn’t myself.